Income Tax and the lingering pains….

I have just completed my income tax form. This is the first year of the self assessment system. I have quite a struggle in doing so. The first hurdle was that it was in Bahasa (Malaysian Language) all the while I received an English version. I almost failed my Bahasa subject during my secondary school exams. Now I need to understand the words that were in the form in order for me to “invest” in the government. I called practically almost daily for the past few days to the Tax department to enquire, to just understand on what some items meant.

In the progress I found out that I still owe them in total of Rm8K including my wife’s. It was a shock to me as I have been receiving statement and all the while it shows credit balance. I guess I will need to pay a personal visit to the tax department to clear it up. Even for this year assessment I owe them in total of Rm5K including my wife. I will need to tighten my belt and eat less to pay them up.

When I reached the row D2 which was on parents medical, I felt a tingle of sadness. This will be the last year that I will be entering it. As I flipped through the medical receipt which my dad has passed to me, I was practically holding back my tears. It has been more than 5 months since he left us but I still feel the loss and the vacuum in my heart, it still ache. Human has always behaves this way, when we are in possession of something, we always treat it as our god gives rights but when we loss it, we feel the pain, the longings. I used to have a father that I could talked to and now all I have is the memories. We do argue once in a while but…..my earphone now is playing a Beyond songs. The songs that was famous after its lead singer was killed in an accident. It said each day we meet, we talked, we laughed and now I need to depart…I think I will stop before the tears starts to roll down from my eyes again…..